If Only Made Me Do It

Author: , ©2012

Do you trust yourself? Do you believe in yourself? Do you trust your intuition or are you stuck with two words that can defeat you? Those two words that bring only personal or professional defeat are 'if only' and 'someday'. The two most powerful words that can keep you down, keep you from getting what you desire from life. I am sure you have heard words like these or similar many times before but have you ever sat down and thought about how many times you have used either of these words and expressions?

Negative Thoughts
I am very familiar with these words of negative thinking and I have sought to keep from using them in all my own situations. However, several years ago, I ran into a situation that continued to make me unhappy. That situation was the work I did, and the people I had to report to. At the same time, I was searching for alternatives. But, before I decided to move on to a different environment, I resurrected a long time desire. I was at first reluctant to give it any further thought but the words "if only' stuck in my mind.

My Idea
The idea I had was to work as an actor. I know that may sound a bit strange after many years of working in my profession but that's what I was strongly thinking about. The idea kept swirling around in my head so I started to investigate the possibility. I scheduled an appointment to try out for an acting agency in the city. Off I went one Saturday morning knowing this was probably one of those situations that would either make me or break me.

There were only a few people at the audition so it wasn't long before I was up on stage and asked to perform several scenarios and characters. I did not have any formal training whatsoever in the past so these requests were not easy to accommodate - but I gave it my best shot with the thought that I need to live each day. As soon as I had finished, I noticed the owner of the agency talking to a couple of other people who had auditioned. Since I wasn't approached, I thought I must have bombed so I simply left and went home.

As I traveled home, my first thought was that at least I hadn't given if to the 'if only' view and I had actually gone ahead and put my foot forward and that felt good. I had not cowered to what I know can be a very debilitating thought process and I sure didn't want to go to my grave wondering 'what would have happened to my life if I had gone to the audition'.

It was only a few hours when the phone rang. It was the owner of the actor agency. He told me that he had wanted to talk with me but I had left before he could. He went on to say that he was quite impressed with my audition and said that I had a lot of potential.

I Did Not Give In
To make a long story short, I did go back and see him and that was the start of a two years stint in the acting community. I did it. I did not give in to the 'if only', or someday I might try it doubts that rule so many of our lives.

To quote Yanni, "All you need is passion. If you have a passion for something, you'll create the talent." Trust yourself - do what is your passion - go for it because you have only one life to live.

Inspirational Quotes for Reflection:
"Having the confidence to believe in yourself and your abilities will go a long way in creating your successes and improving your view of yourself." Raymona Brown

"Three strong attributes, which characterize a person, are hope, trust and a sense of charity." M.K. Soni

"Live authentically and passionately - Let these things show. They can be contagious." Christian Motley


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